The If/Then statement
 IF you would have told me a month and a half ago Parker would be able to pull her legs up underneath herself into the full crawling stance you may have gotten an odd laugh/cry combo out of me. I imagine my reaction would have made you feel uncomfortable and and pretty unsure what to do. haha. I think my reaction would take at least 30 seconds. A laugh would come out of me because I'm pretty sure One, I wouldn't have hardly believed you or known how to react to that kind of news. And Two, crawling is such a hard skill taking so much trunk control and strength which is one of Parker's greatest weaknesses. I have had times where I've wondered if light at the end of the crawling tunnel truly existed, or if since we have worked so hard already at crawling we now get the option to just skip crawling and go straight to walking because most days that almost seems like an easier skill for us to gain. I have known Parker will eventually crawl, but I never would have thought it would be here this soon.
 Having said that, the crying portion of my reaction... Everything Parker is learning to do is a miracle and blessing. I feel so blessed and grateful when the Lord lets me witness it. Sometimes its such a spiritual experience I sometimes feel like I can't believe I am here. I can't help but think of the feeling a parent has for a child when they want something so painfully bad for them, whether its an experience, skill, characteristic, or materialistic thing? Well that parental yearning is overwhelmingly complete when those little moments happen in my living room right before my eyes. The miracles I pray for every day I see happening when Parker pulls her legs completely underneath herself into the full crawling stance. The moment freezes me and I think, "this is REALLY happening right now." Its then a silent prayer of the heart in those times.  
It's crazy to think we are praying to be able to crawl! Four months ago we were praying to just track and then grab a toy. I can't believe this our experience. I sometimes feel selfish because I know there are those who are less fortunate and unable to have the experiences or opportunities to learn, and acquire skills in this life like Parker, or myself for that matter. It reminds me that beyond myself, there are those in heaven and on earth who are rooting in my family's behalf. It reminds me that there is a God, and He is aware of me, and the needs of me, and my children. It reminds me that I am enough to be the wife, and mother Heavenly Father wants me to be. Reminds us on a hard day to keep going. And so hey, sometime a little reminder never hurt anybody! #youareenough

-The Vrouw